The start to this adventure feels different than the last time. I’m a real college student now so the nerves aren’t hitting like they did in August. The fear is gone… the unknown is suddenly known… My feeling is simply ready- ready to start the next chapter in my college career.
What is surprising to me is that I miss the novelty I felt last August. Normally I hate the unknown, and I despise the butterfly-in-stomach feeling. However, I like squelching that feeling more than I detest it, I suppose, and I miss my old adversary. I wish I was a bright-eyed and bushy-tailed first semester freshman at the moment, ready to tackle anything with my new pens and college-ruled paper. Now I’m a second semester freshman and things aren’t scaring me.
Perhaps that is why I am slightly uneasy about tomorrow- I am too relaxed! Not that I am just horribly nervous or depressed (read: I don’t need any phone calls or checkups- I’m fine.) I simply feel off guard. Not unprepared, just as if I’m waiting to see from which direction traffic is coming and there is not a car in sight to indicate the answer.
So this entire ramble was to say this. I’m almost too comfortable about tomorrow, but at the end of the day, I know I will do fine, because I have confidence in something, probably confidence in confidence alone, to quote one of my favorite movie-songs (five points to whoever figures it out).
Oh, and it is nice to be back.
Clott
really, Sound of Music quotes should not be issued as challenges. :)
ReplyDeleteon another note, one of my theatre professors at college told us we should always be slightly off-guard. and always be a little nervous before stepping onstage. i think "slightly uneasy" qualifies. and be prepared to be surprised by what God is going to do!